Yesterday I had to put my beloved Katy down. I was not ready. I thought I knew the signs, but Katy didn't experience those signs. She was still eating, she was still agile, and she could still be happy, but she was in pain. The tumor was shutting off her bladder.
Today we are snowed in, wandering around the house that feels so empty. Lucy doesn't realize it yet and keeps looking for her as I keep making a conscious effort not to.